My Singin' Legs

I have recently discovered an amazing artist, Sean McConnell. He's a local and has a voice that reaches deep inside your soul and fills it with music. I was introduced to him by a friend and wanted to share with you. This song has helped me through some difficult times when I'm in my head and doing what I do best and over-analyzing. His words move me and his music fills me up. I hope you appreciate as much as I did... Madly In Love With You See you down there everyday Trying to find a different way To build some kind of latter to the sky Trying to find some way to see Secrets of eternity, and they don’t come all at once And you don’t know why Well how do you think it feels to hear you screaming out my name While all the while I’m trying to open up your heart See you when you cry yourself to sleep It’s tearing me apart I know you wish you could see me That’s the way it has to be Someday you’ll understand, don’t you lose your faith in me I know you...

Tuesday was Tommy's birthday! Happy Birthday, love! He moved to Chicago last Friday and was seeking out a place to live while he was staying in the hotel on the company's tab. Monday was his last day there for "free". We spoke numerous times those first few days. He knew I was having a hard time with it. He really does know me. In all honesty, I don't think he is terribly fond of the situation either, but he has an amazing ability to see the good in all situations. He knows what he needs to worry about and what will work itself out. (Great quality in a partner) We were talking on Sunday about this place he had to go look at that had great potential as a future living space. He said that if things worked out and all was a go, then he could come home for a few days to spend time with me! He said not to get my hopes up, but if it worked out, he would come home. Things worked out and he came home. I went to pick him up from the airport. I parked my car ...

This is what Tommy said to me as we discussed his big move coming up. Tommy, my boyfriend, is a flight attendant for American Eagle Airlines and has been based in Chicago. He will be moving there March 11th. He has spent the last 3 weeks in Flight Academy training. 6 days a week, 12 hours a day. I'm lucky that I have seen him as often as I have. He passed with flying colors (pardon the pun) and received his wings. I attended the graduation ceremony complete with inside jokes, tears, and inspirational videos narrated by James Garner and theme songs sung by Michael Bolton. Yes, I know how jealous you must feel right now. He was so happy; he is so happy. I'm so happy for him and this amazing opportunity!! I'm so proud of his accomplishment. I'm merely feeling selfish that he won't live here and that he won't be as accessible to me. I know we can talk and web chat (he got me a web cam so we can chat face to face) and text to communicate. We talk abo...

It's a happy blog, I promise. I do, typically, blog when I'm sad or angry, but this is a happy one. If you read back a few blogs, you would have read about Tommy and I breaking up and a slew of reasons as to why it was the best thing for he and I, individually and he and I as us. Turns out, my defense mechanisms had kicked in and I was preserving my heart. I was running scared. I had, for the first time in my life, real love staring me in the face. I didn't know what it looked like. I didn't know how to deal with it. It was so much at one time. It was overwhelming. So, I ran... it's what I do best. I run, convince everyone that it's the best thing, convince myself that I don't deserve goodness and love, and I run. Well, I ran, but I didn't get far. The two days that had passed from the moment he walked out of my door until the moment he called me to see how I was were the darkest days for me. I was out of control, emotional, broken, hurt,...

I was asked to share my thoughts and experiences on auditioning for Kiss of the Spiderwoman for the theatre's blog. I thought I would share it with you too. To survive an Adam Adolfo audition is not an easy feat to accomplish; I know. I’ve survived three! They are far from typical, completely unexpected, in your face and personal space, and everything an actor wanting to grow desires from a director. Most of the time, you won’t learn this about the director until the rehearsal process has begun, but not with Adam. He lays it all out there for you, right in your face. It’s a big reason why I continue to audition for him. When I first learned that he was directing Kiss of the Spiderwoman, I knew this was a show I wanted to be a part of in some way, shape, or form. I preferred the form of the Spiderwoman. The role of the Spiderwoman is an iconic role and would give me a chance to really stretch my abilities and take on a leading role; a title role. This could be a huge opportuni...

Yes, I've have done it. I have officially made it 365 days without a cigarette. *APPLAUSE* It's been a feat to accomplish, but I'm so thankful that I did. I was trying to figure out how much money I saved yesterday. If I average $5.50 for a pack of cigarettes and smoked 2 packs a week... are you ready? $572.00 for just my everyday habit. Not to include all the extra packs I would have purchased for nights I went out and got my drink on or partied with friends. You might as well double that figure... $1,144.00!! Can you believe it? And I know cigarettes are more expensive than that now; like $7 a pack. Sheesh! Anyway, I owe it to John Tillman. If you remember from earlier blogs, he was my Benedick. He did not smoke and we had kissing scenes. I was respectful of him and would not smoke during the day since I would not be able to go home and brush my teeth prior to rehearsals. I would only smoke after. I began this when we started actually kissing in rehears...