My Singin' Legs

Yes, I know. It's been a long long time. Things have been... well, crazy. What else do you expect? I have lots to catch you up on and I intend to...but later. I have to close my show today. It's been a great run, but I'm ready for it to end. I promise, that I will come back and rehash all that has occurred since I last blogged. Wish me a GREAT SHOW!!!

Yes, this is the mood I'm in today and I needed a song to match it. I am many things, but I'm not my hair! (Yes, I know the lyrics pertain to a woman of African American descent and I'm not, but look past that to the message of the song and you will see how I am feeling today!) Thanks Ashlie! You're the best! I AM NOT MY HAIR (India.Arie) Is that India.Arie? What happened to her hair? Ha ha ha ha ha Dat dad a dat da Dad a ooh Little girl with the press and curl Age eight I got a Jheri curl Thirteen I got a relaxer I was a source of so much laughter At fifteen when it all broke off Eighteen and went all natural February two thousand and two I went and did What I had to do Because it was time to change my life To become the women that I am inside Ninety-seven dreadlock all gone I looked in the mirror For the first time and saw that HEY.... I am not my hair I am not this skin I am not your expectations no no I am not my hair I ma not this skin I am a soul that lives with...

Watch the sunrise Say your goodbyes Off we go Some conversation No contemplation Hit the road Car overheats Jump out of my seat On the side of the highway, baby Our road is long Your hold is strong Please don't ever let go, oh no I know I don't know you But I want you so bad Everyone has a secret Oh, can they keep it? Oh no, they can't I'm driving fast now Don't think I know how to go slow Where you at now I feel around There you are Cool these engines Calm these jets I ask you how hot can it get And as you wipe off beads of sweat Slowly you say, I'm not there yet I know I don't know you But I want you so bad Everyone has a secret Oh, can they keep it? Oh no, they can't I know I don't know you But I want you so bad Everyone has a secret Oh, but can they keep it? Oh no, they can't

And strangely is a song by the country group, SheDaisy. It's how I feel right now... I'm hopeful about love again and I know what I need, want, deserve, and what I won't bend on. So, here are the lyrics for you and for me too... This woman that takes on the world And picks up your shirts, keeps it together somehow This same woman, that melts with your touch Wants you to feel what I'm feeling right now 'Cause this woman needs A safe place to land The strength in your hands To know you know What this woman needs Is somewhere to cry So lay by my side And I'll tell you, I'll tell you This woman needs to be reassured That my heart's your home and love is what wills you to stay I need you to see me in every light And hear that you still think I'm beautiful anyway 'Cause this woman needs A safe place to land The strength in your hands To know you know What this woman needs Is somewhere to cry So lay by my side And I'll ...

It's a little bit of a sad day for me today. After a magnificent run of Much Ado About Nothing followed by 3 amazing reviews from The Edge/Dallas, Theatre Jones, and The Column; the show has sadly closed. After 2 weekends of packed houses and superb audience response, it's over and I'm most sad about this. This show, this role, my fellow actors, and the friends I have made over the course of this process made all the shit that we went through totally worth it! I truly feel like I am a stronger woman after playing this role. I feel as if I have more confidence in my acting ability and in myself after this. I feel like I have a stronger conviction in myself when it comes to men in general. As you know, Greg and I broke up almost 2 months ago. Well, he kept telling me, in our limited conversations via text, that he would be coming to see the show. He said he would be attending the first weekend, but never showed. I don't really know why, but this made me sad a...

Yes, there are new developments in my life. Most of which I am most thankful for despite the circumstances that caused them. As you read previously, my maternal grandfather passed away last Tuesday, April 20th. He was 80 years old. He led a wonderful life and loved his children, Monica and Kirk. He loved his grandchildren, myself, Abby, Ryan, and Kolton. And he loved his late wife, Wanda, who left us several years ago. Though he may not have been the best at expressing his emotions, he did love us. My mom and uncle were in Denver to close up accounts and handle all legal work. My mom was placed as executor according to the Last Will and Testament. A memorial service was held in Denver on April 25th for his companion, Jeanie, and his friends. Over 120 people attended the ceremony. My mom said that she was overwhelmed by how many people were apart of his life. She called me after the ceremony to regale me of the event and told me of something she found. When she and Kirk ar...

My sincerest apologies for neglecting my blogging therapy. Many things have occurred recently that have caused my absence from here. Please let me explain: Tuesday, April 20th began like any other day. Wake up, feed the fish, get to work. Well, after being at work for a couple of hours, my father came in to inform me that my grandfather had passed away that morning from a massive heart attack. It floored me. Knocked the wind out of me. I was not anywhere near prepared for this. My dad just let me sit there and cry. I left the office and went home. Courtney came over with Jack in the Box and we watched Top Gun! I just needed a moment to process what happened. I went to rehearsal that evening and then home to a brainless movie, a beer, and the company of my best friend. I have slept in the last few days and took care of some business around the house. There, sadly, is drama with the Last Will and Testament and my mom, as executor, is taking care of things. Her and my u...