It's not the end, it's the beginning...


This is what Tommy said to me as we discussed his big move coming up. Tommy, my boyfriend, is a flight attendant for American Eagle Airlines and has been based in Chicago. He will be moving there March 11th. He has spent the last 3 weeks in Flight Academy training. 6 days a week, 12 hours a day. I'm lucky that I have seen him as often as I have. He passed with flying colors (pardon the pun) and received his wings. I attended the graduation ceremony complete with inside jokes, tears, and inspirational videos narrated by James Garner and theme songs sung by Michael Bolton. Yes, I know how jealous you must feel right now. He was so happy; he is so happy. I'm so happy for him and this amazing opportunity!! I'm so proud of his accomplishment.


I'm merely feeling selfish that he won't live here and that he won't be as accessible to me. I know we can talk and web chat (he got me a web cam so we can chat face to face) and text to communicate. We talk about all the traveling he will be doing and all the places he will see and all the places he will fly me to and we'll see together and it all sounds incredible and it will be incredible; I know this. He's only in Chicago for a year before he can apply for a transfer; maybe even only 6 months. This is not a long time, so why can I not focus on that? Why can I only focus on the fact that he's moving? He gets a minimum of 11 days off a month. He will be here as often as he can be or he will fly me to Chicago so we can be together. Why am I so focused on the negative? There are more positive aspects to this move than negative. I know this will be an amazing thing for us. We will grow stronger because of it. I pray every day for strength and clarity and refocus. So, I'm asking that you lift a little prayer for me too in that regard. Pray that I will refocus on the positives of this major change! Pray for his safe travels to and from wherever he goes. He's an amazing man and I'm blessed to have him in my life!

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