The affect music has on my life!
Let me just tell you, it's powerful. Music moves me in ways I couldn't even begin to understand. There's an emotional reaction, a mental reaction, and depending on the song and circumstance, a physical reaction. I'm the kind of person that listens to happy music when I'm in a happy mood, sad music when I'm in a sad mood, and so on and so forth.
Most people think I'm crazy for listening to sad music when I'm sad, but it helps me. It brings me, emotionally and mentally, to the same place so I can make everything fit and then move on. It's how I process heartache; no matter the circumstance. The same goes for when I'm angry. I listen to hard music, loud music, angry music. It takes me to the place I'm angry and through the words, I pull myself out of the darkness. My car usually takes a beating when I'm in those moods. I drive and beat my steering wheel.
I can just listen to the music and be affected, but when I really need to deal with something or move past something or let something go... I have to sing. I have to physically let the words fall out of my mouth. I don't even really pick the song to listen to; it just finds me. It's like I have this unknown emotional DJ that plays the exact song I need to hear exactly when I need to hear it. I will sing until I'm hoarse if I need to get something out. At the top of my lungs with every ounce of emotion I can muster. Singing is my drug. I cannot live without it. I'm completely dependent upon it. I even need to sing when I'm sick in order to get well. I hate having a sore throat. It's the worst!
If I can't sing and listening isn't cutting it, I dance. Dancing is the physical expulsion of my emotions. I dance until I can't stand up. I dance until I pass out. I leave it all out on the floor. Anger, sadness, heartache, fear; whatever I need to let go of, I leave it. I'm thankful every day that I have this... every day!
Music is my life, my all. I can't be without it. It is my life... always will be.
Most people think I'm crazy for listening to sad music when I'm sad, but it helps me. It brings me, emotionally and mentally, to the same place so I can make everything fit and then move on. It's how I process heartache; no matter the circumstance. The same goes for when I'm angry. I listen to hard music, loud music, angry music. It takes me to the place I'm angry and through the words, I pull myself out of the darkness. My car usually takes a beating when I'm in those moods. I drive and beat my steering wheel.
I can just listen to the music and be affected, but when I really need to deal with something or move past something or let something go... I have to sing. I have to physically let the words fall out of my mouth. I don't even really pick the song to listen to; it just finds me. It's like I have this unknown emotional DJ that plays the exact song I need to hear exactly when I need to hear it. I will sing until I'm hoarse if I need to get something out. At the top of my lungs with every ounce of emotion I can muster. Singing is my drug. I cannot live without it. I'm completely dependent upon it. I even need to sing when I'm sick in order to get well. I hate having a sore throat. It's the worst!If I can't sing and listening isn't cutting it, I dance. Dancing is the physical expulsion of my emotions. I dance until I can't stand up. I dance until I pass out. I leave it all out on the floor. Anger, sadness, heartache, fear; whatever I need to let go of, I leave it. I'm thankful every day that I have this... every day!
Music is my life, my all. I can't be without it. It is my life... always will be.
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