My Singin' Legs

A friend of mine sent me a link to an astrology website.  Now, I do not believe in astrology, but I do find it incredibly coincidental.  I began reading the breakdown and was taken aback by how close in description is really is to who I am.  It's not a perfect depiction, but it's the closest I've seen ever. Aquarius Strength Keywords: (All of these are true) - Witty - Clever - Humanitarian - Inventive - Original Aquarius Weakness Keywords: (All of these are true) - Stubborn - Unemotional - Sarcastic - Rebellious - Aloof Aquarius and Independence: Aquarius personality is very independent, any attempt to hold them down or restrict them will cause them, to flee. They need to be free to be on their own. Independence is not just desired by Aquarius, it is essential to their well being. Aquarius and Friendship: Beneath the detached, unemotional exterior lies a kind hearted friend that will go out of their way to help another. They love to make people la...

So just recently I discovered Ghost, the musical.  I've fallen in love.  It's beautiful.  Currently, this song is on repeat... The lyrics are breathtaking. Nothing Stop Another Day I see the sunrise from my window It must have risen everyday But I couldn’t see at all, the shadows were too tall, but I am seeing it today I could see the people speaking; I couldn’t hear a word they say Just the echo of it all, passing through an empty hall, I’m hearing it today Because the world keeps turning and I guess it always will I can choose to turn around, or I can choose to just stand still, either way, nothing stops another day. I lost my life and all its meaning And so I locked myself away But in my heart behind a wall, I couldn’t feel it beat at all But I’m feeling it today. Because the world keeps turning and I guess it always will I can choose to turn around, or I can choose to just stand still, either way, no...

What is the purpose of looking behind you?  Looking back to your past?  Why do we do this?  People are in your past for a reason, a purpose.  Why do we try and pull them into our present?  Why? I did this today.  I was having a conversation with a friend and she asked, again, about my recent ex, Robby.  Did I miss him?  Would I consider being with him again?  And again, I answered that I didn't and I don't.  Talk about beating a dead horse!  Ugh... so then she mentions something about ex boyfriends; so, naturally, I start thinking about mine.  The one that I keep coming back to is Tommy.  He is the one with the unresolved past.  The one that broke up with me via text after I broke my foot.  I think that is the reason I think about him; the unfinished business thing.  The need to understand the REAL reason why he ended the relationship.  So, what do I do?  Crazy Emily goes and looks him up on Face...

Let me just tell you, it's powerful. Music moves me in ways I couldn't even begin to understand. There's an emotional reaction, a mental reaction, and depending on the song and circumstance, a physical reaction. I'm the kind of person that listens to happy music when I'm in a happy mood, sad music when I'm in a sad mood, and so on and so forth. Most people think I'm crazy for listening to sad music when I'm sad, but it helps me. It brings me, emotionally and mentally, to the same place so I can make everything fit and then move on.  It's how I process heartache; no matter the circumstance.  The same goes for when I'm angry.  I listen to hard music, loud music, angry music.  It takes me to the place I'm angry and through the words, I pull myself out of the darkness.  My car usually takes a beating when I'm in those moods.  I drive and beat my steering wheel. I can just listen to the music and be affected, but when I really need to ...

This song has been on repeat for the last several days.  I love Sara Bareilles and her music.  She's not afraid to be real and I love that about her.  I love the music.  I love the words.  I love my musical therapist.  Hope you enjoy it. Hold my breath and I'll count to ten I'm the paper and you're the pen You fill me in and you are permanent And you'll leave me to dry I'm the writer and she's the muse I'm the one that you always choose She will falter and gift her blame And it's starts all over again Again again again She is bright lights and cityscapes And white lies and cavalcades And she'll take all you ever have But I'm gonna love you You say maybe it'll last this time But I'm gonna love you You never have to ask I'm gonna love you 'Til you start looking back I'm gonna love you So right I wouldn't need a second chance Shield your eyes from the truth at hand Tell me why it'll be good a...

Here it is... my so called life.  I feel stuck and I'm not sure what it will take to feel unstuck.  I'm not completely unhappy... I have a lot of things to be happy about if I'm being completely honest.  On the flip side, there are many things that do make me feel unhappy.  I have 2 jobs, the cutest little puppy ever, an amazing family, the best group of friends, 2 of the best friends in the world, a social life, a new car, no debt (except school loans and my car note), an upcoming trip to Italy with my sister, I could go on.  All of that is fine and good and I'm so thankful for it.  However, I find myself alone.  I know that I'm not, but I feel it all the time.  I got to work every day and come home to an empty apartment except for Daisy.  Seeing her sweet little face when I walk in the door helps so much.  She is so excited to see me; she jumps up and down, wagging her little curly tail and licking my face just begging for me to let ...

I discovered this song on Pandora this morning and immediately bought the song. Just a little bit of inspiration for myself. Hell, it's inspiration for anyone who needs a little pick-me-up today, tomorrow, or ever. "I feel lovely the way that I am." LOVELY by Sara Haze I don't wanna be her I just want to be little old me Shouldn't have to think Who am I suppose to be today And what gives you the right To tell me who I should be Who gave you that right Cause I, I feel lovely Just the way that I am Yes I feel lovely The way that I am I know you want the best Yeah only good things for me But you have to realize I can't be all these things you project on me Cause I'm beautiful to me Doesn't that mean a thing I feel lovely Just the way that I am Yes I feel lovely The way that I am I need that to be enough for you Need that to be enough for you Cause it's enough for me It's enough for me Am I suppose to give up eve...