Ever had one of those days...

When nothing makes sense? When you can't seem to do anything right? When you feel things slipping away? When all you need to do is make some hot cocoa, curl up on the couch with your girlfriends, and watch funny movies and just laugh the day away as if it doesn't exist?

When you feel restless? Like you're barely getting by in your life? Like you're suffocating just sitting still? Like if you could just get outta here you could breathe? Like you're not alive at all?

When you strike out again? When you continue to fight for something that doesn't seem to fight back for you? When your energy and strength has been completely depleted and you have no fight left in you? Where you feel like you've lost all hope that it will happen for you?

Today feels like that day.

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  1. LaurenFebruary 2, 2011 at 11:52 AM

    Yes! I answered yes to EVERY one of these questions. Therefore, I know it WILL happen to you! Sometimes you have to close your eyes and leap....and trust that God has a plan for you! He has some crazy timing, sometimes....but it all turns out in the end! I love you!

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